Grant me the serenity.

Okay, so my last post I was upset with my roommate, and the other night things got pretty heated. 
It started where she blamed my other roommate and I for ruining a pillow and we have no idea what happened to it.  It's not even ruined it's the type of fabric where if water gets on it, it will show, but easily can be blotch cleaned.  Anyways, she said things like "well if I ruin your guys stuff I'll at least tell you.," and "I just wish you would confess," which really pissed me off because I don't know what happened to it, because it's a simple water stain, and because I didn't ruin her pillow (at least not on purpose that I was even aware of).  Anyways, I was ready to beat my roommate because this is the 3rd time she has accused my other roommate and I of something. 
Now, I may be only 5 foot 3 inches, 115 pounds, but I have beaten up a guy before, literally punched him in the face approximately 5 times.  (Thankfully I didn't get arrested for assault!), anyways, I was very close to beating my roommate.  I seriously can't stand her, she has made no effort to try and get to know my other roommate and I, she makes demands and rules for the house when she is NEVER here, she takes up most of the space in the house when clearly my other roommate and I own 2/3's of the house collectively and are willing to share with each other.
I had a really hard time trying to stay calm, not over reacting, and to trust in the Lord to not have me beat her.  Eventually I just walked away because nothing was getting accomplished.  Which is unfortunate because we really need to get things figured out because my lease isn't up until May and I'm not sure I can do 8 more months of this. 
But I am trying, I guess the saying "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all," if applicable in this situation.  I don't know if I could honestly talk to her anymore without screaming at her, at least not now.  So it may be better for me to just leave her alone and not talk to her at all.  It shouldn't be too hard though since she's never home.  Which brings up another rant, how can I have such a strong dislike for someone who is NEVER AROUND??  If anyone can riddle me that one that would be great.
Okay, well I'm done ranting for now, I'm actually quite calm in terms of this situation now, and I know that if I keep talking about it it'll just get my blood flowing even more, and being the point of this blog is to help me to be a better person I'm probably defeating the purpose.
Okay, so if anyone has any tips, advice, or words of wisdom for me, that would be fantastic!
Take care everyone.

Trying My Hardest

Okay so here's the deal.  I am going to be honest, I am the type of girl who doesn't take any shit from people, I speak my mind, am blunt, and straight forward.  Sometimes it is hard to stay cool, calm, and collected.  I have been struggling to maintain this attitude of not being confrontational since moving to Omaha.  Some people just get under your skin so much.  For example, when someone leaves lights on in your house all night long so that the light seeps into your room through the door and runs the energy bill up the wall.  Or, when you have been in bed for 2 hours and someone is trampling up and down the stairs in a house that echos terribly.  Pretty sure noise levels like that could wake an entire neighborhood. 
It is times like these that I have a hard time not freaking out on people.  It has been a month and a half of these irritations and I am starting to feel like I am about to blow.  However, I started this blog because I want to try and become a better person, so that I won't be so quick to fight back, and to focus more on keeping a level head.  I feel mature and calm communication would be a good solution to this problem, however the person who is causing me this stress is only around about once per week.  Which them upsets me because how can I be so angry and despise someone so much when I only see them (or hear them) once per week?!  This whole situation is so frustrating.  For me I need to just continue to try, to think of the blessings in my life, and to display the Lord in my actions and words.  As challenging as this may be sometimes to keep peace I first have to create it. 

"Turn from evil; do good; seek peace and pursue it."  Psalms 34:14

First blog

This is my first blog ever so bear with me everyone! :)


A little background information about me: 

My name is Kaylee Elizabeth.  Currently I am attending Creighton University studying my doctorate in Occupational Therapy.  I attended Minnesota West Community and Technical College where I received my A.A degree in Liberal Arts and my A.S degree in Pre-Professional Studies.  After, I transferred to South Dakota State University where I received my B.S degree in psychology.

My favorite things to do are:
Travel and spend time with my family. 

Some of my favorite things include but are not limited to:
Watching movies, spending time out on the lake, comedians, ice cream, working, going out to eat, shopping, and Hawaii.

A couple of things I'd like to be able to take from this "blogging" are:
1)  To be able to talk about things that come to mind.  I'm not a very personal person so don't expect me to express my emotions and feelings.  This is not that kind of blog.
2)  To provide an outlet to life.  Sometimes life can get overwhelming and I'm hoping with this blog when I need to take a break from life I can come and type.
3)  To help people and to make a difference.  Staying positive is sometimes a lot easier said that done in many situations.  It is really easy to be negative about situations, to be judgmental, and to not look for reasons why things happen the way they do.  It has been one of my personal goals to try to be more positive, to not let negative influences  distract me, and to try to demonstrate positive actions around others.

Well I think that this is going to be it for my first blog because Jeff Dunham is on comedy central, I have a TON of reading that I need to do for school before tomorrow still, and I don't like being on the computer for very long periods of time.

Until next time ponder this:  When you are outside looking in, you will never understand it, but if you are on the inside looking out, you will never be able to explain it.

What does this mean to you?